Lately I've been stressing a lot. It's so many things going on in my life, all hitting me at once. I have to much built up inside of me, it's eating me alive. I haven't been myself much, crazy things go through my head. I want it to get out of me. I have to fight it everyday, leave me alone. "Calm down. Get it together." I try, but I keep falling anyway. For some reason my mind has set itself to listen to Celtic Frost. Obscured is the one that keeps on replay, what's going on. My body seems to calm down though but my mind hasn't. The only person that makes me feel special is my babe Limar. But this "battle" with guys trying to come at him makes me lose it even more. I've done my crying, my heart bled when this used to happen now my heart and mind set itself on something else. My heart & mind say, "we're not taking this no more. they keep trying to take what your in-love with, you have to act Juan. Don't take their B.S anymore, say something! do something!" When Limar is around, all that is gone, like it never happened... I'm back to ME. But when he's not next to me and someone pushes the wrong button on me, I go back to my Bandaged-Self, The'Unkown. (Takes a deep breath)... "You have to act NOW Juan. It's time." See what I mean like that. My mind starts to think like this out of nowhere. Stress can really do its damage, now I see.
-P.S: Yesterday (30min ago) was me and limar's month anniversary. 2years with 4months <3
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