Also friendships have changed with others. There are a few, well I should say two people that we thought were good but instead they turn their backs. I can't have friends that be talking about my babe, NOT AT ALL. If they have something to say then why not say it to me instead of behind my back. ' AVE MARIA ' If things don't change then letting go is the only option for them, me and Limar will remain forever, not letting anything or anyone get in between us both.
Friday (5/1/09) : Limar, Me and Asya had hung out on this day. It was another very special day. We had our laughters, giggles, it was just the best. I didn't want the day and night to end so soon. I knew I was going to see him again tomorrow, I was going to spend the night with him.
I'm getting tired of waiting for my dad to take the stand and make a change in his life by accepting me! It has been almost 4 months! and still I don't feel or see any difference in him.
Saturday (5/2/09) : I had went to work but all I had in my mind was Limar. I couldn't wait to be by his side. Feel his hugs and feel his kisses. He is my heaven on earth, He is my last and my first, I hear his voice inside me...." baby, I love you ... I love you so much "
It was time to go catch the bus, got to Wilmington, Took the train, We walked home... I was with him. We lay in bed, kiss, hug, talk, cherish every moment I was having with him. He talked to me but I kept dosing off into those eyes, that sweet sound of his voice, I saw and heard nothing only him. Haha we were play fighting, I was having fun even though I beat him up lol! We had so much fun ... He also made me some food, It was SO GOOD. My babe sure knows how to cook. I just sat there and wow! I can't believe this is my love, he is all mine, Thank you god for giving me such a sweet and caring guy; someone that loves me truly not foolish love, this is real love.
It was time to go to sleep, we lay in bed, holding me tight, whispering in my ear that he loves me, telling me how much he loves and why. The night was still ... He had fallen asleep, All I heard was the beat of his heart calling out to me. I stay here and nowhere to go my love. My presence is engraved within you. I give him a kiss on the cheek, " goodnight my love, sweet dreams ... you are my love and only you. Goodnight " I lay my head on his chest, holding me tight and opens his eyes a little, looks at me, gives me a kiss and whispers " i love you too " ... Than we just fall asleep together.
Sunday ( 5/3/09 ) : I awake still to be in the arms of my love. Holding on to each other with such love. We end up play fighting again lol he beat me this time. His laughter brought joy into the room full of love. His mom called him over, he comes back " are you ready ? " I knew it was time to go back home ( tears ) I didn't want to leave him! He had told me that he was going to stay because of what way will he get back home. But I had told him to please come with me ... So he did. We spent the last few hours together telling each other how much we love each other. The day was cold and rainy. But him by my side kept me warm and safe. I was happy it was raining, to hide the tears I shed. ( 1:45 p.m ) His bus had arrived ... It was time for him to go back home. My goodbye and kiss was hurtful. I didn't want him to go! NO! He got on, told me to be good and that he loves me. I just watched it pull-off. I stand there in the cold rain, running down my face covering the tears. I wave " See you soon my love ... I love you so much ... " Like he can hear me but I know the spirit within will let him know what I had said.
He calls me and tells me that he is about to get off the bus because he doesn't want to leave. He wants to stay with me, I tell him that it's oh-kay. I'll see him again at time we can just talk.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH LIMAR ... YOU ARE MY LAST AND MY FIRST ... YOU MEAN THE WHOLE WORLD TO ME ... I NEVER HAD AND NEVER WILL HAVE ANYONE LIKE YOU BECAUSE YOU WILL REMAIN MINE TILL DEATH DO US APART ... I LOVE YOU ...
- Always and Forever your only true love,
JUAN .
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